Christmas has been and gone for another year
Thought it was time for an update as it's been a while again and one or two things have been and gone.
We went to the Casino for Paul's 60th we had a few drinks in Leeds and then onto the gambling. We went a week early so everyone could go but it was a smashing night and even the pouring down rain didn't dampen the fun. We always have a great time when we all get together.
We didn't come out any richer but it was well worth going and it's something I'd definitely do again.
On Paul's actual birthday we didn't do anything it just passed by as another day. I know if Rebecca had been here it wouldn't have been quiet but this is something we've had to get used to and as hard as it is, we have to just get on with it.
I think what we've learned over the last 51/2 years is to do things differently and it doesn't hurt as much. That's the key really, we have to do what makes it easier for us.
So next comes another Christmas which seems to start earlier and earlier in the shops these days.
I've found if I buy my Christmas cards as soon as they're in the shops, i.e. November, it's better because there's no Christmas music continually playing and I just avoid looking at cards for Daughter. I don't buy many presents because I find it really hard shopping for others when all I can think about is what I'd have been buying for Rebecca. This is where doing things differently comes in, I just give money although I do buy for our Mum's and my great nieces Eloise and Isabelle.
I do put some decorations out but I don't have a tree anymore as there were always so many presents under our tree I can't deal with the empty space there would be now. I do put my picture up that was painted by my Dad and Rebecca 30 odd years ago and I can look at that and smile. I love this picture.
As I said earlier it's doing things different that helps so this year we went out in the afternoon on Christmas Eve and our friends Bryn and Ann also popped into the pub so we had a nice couple of hours with them. Christmas day after vising Rebecca and my Dad with my Mum (thankyou to everyone who visited her as well, it means a lot that you continue to remember) we went to Paul's mum for dinner and saw Eloise and Isabelle. Isabelle is too young to understand but Eloise was like a whirling dervish racing round opening everything. She was so excited and it was lovely to see and join in with. Christmas dinner was cooked by Paul and Jill and helped by Paul whilst I kept out of the way and it was lovely. I did say I'd wash up afterwards but Mr Liversidge got in first so I didn't get chance, though I did manage to help a little bit.
Didn't do anything Boxing day apart from having a few quid on the horses and a few drinks at home. typically we didn't win anything but it was fun picking them out, shocking Paul when I wanted to put £1 each way on a horse instead of 50p and watching them lose. So that's Christmas over again, It's been quiet but only New Year's eve to get through now. I've never liked New year much anyway so I'm not bothered about staying in and just letting it pass as another night.
On a positive note, Becci's Christmas raffle raised £1238 and to my family and friends who as always, help me keep Becci's memory alive and raise money and awareness for Cystic Fibrosis, thank you for your sterling effort in selling tickets.
I think I've bored you enough now, so if you've got this far, thank you for reading and I'd like to wish you all good health, wealth and happiness for 2015.
Sue xx
