27th June 2015
CATCH UP
These past few weeks since Rebecca's anniversary it's been a bit manic trying to get everything sorted for the cricket match. To say there's been a few ups and downs this year is a bit of an understatement and my enthusiasm for fund raising definitely took a knock and I have quite a few times seriously considered packing it in. The loss of more young people to CF this week is what's made me rethink and that giving up is not an option. Without fund raising, a cure won't be found and more young people will be lost and more families will be devastated by that loss. Having endured losing my only child and still continue to deal with that loss, I can't turn my back on the thing that may one day make CF stand for CURE FOUND. So for now, with the support of Paul, Jill and our family's and friends It's business as usual. That brings me nicely on to :-
CRICKET MATCH
This year even though we had to contend with showery and cool weather, father's day, Pontefract races, reduced numbers helping and not as many people coming, we still had a great day and raised £2457. If you came and have also been in previous years, you'll know what I'm talking about with reduced numbers. You'll also realise that we were very generously supported by the people who did come and for that we are extremely grateful. I've put a few pictures below.
HEAD SHAVE
Well I did it and I've got to say It wasn't as bad as I expected. I didn't shed a tear but one or two of my family and friends did. Many people have said I'm brave for doing it but I don't think it's brave, crackers maybe, but not particularly brave. It didn't hurt, I didn't do anything physically myself, It didn't take any effort once I'd decided to do it, someone else shaved it off for me. The only doubts I had was about my looks and in the grand scheme of things that's not much because lets face it, in a couple of months it will have started growing back and I'll look like my old self again.
I consider brave to be kids like Rebecca with cystic fibrosis who on a daily basis face the constant challenge of living with this dam illness. They live their whole life having to organise every single day around CF with the knowledge that choose how compliant in treatments they are, in all likelihood they will have a short life. The amazing thing about Kids like Rebecca is that they do not let CF define them, they just get on with it, meet it head on and then live life to the fullest they can and enjoy every minute.
That to me is brave.
Here's a few photos
Hopefully with just giving and offline sponsors I'll manage to raise £450 for the head shave, this of course can be boosted by following the link below :)
http://www.justgiving.com/Sue-Marley-MBE2
It's on a sad note that I finish my blog, On Tuesday I found out that Josh Woodlock who was 19 and waiting for a double lung transplant had lost his battle with CF and had passed away in his sleep. Josh even though really ill had made a big effort to come and support the cricket match. He along with his older brother Adam who also has CF and plays for the CF team and his family have been there supporting us for the last several years. I was so sorry to hear the news and having only spoken to Josh a few days earlier was stunned. My thoughts at the moment are constantly with his mum and dad and all his family as they try to come to terms with what has happened. RIP Josh breathe easy.
Thank you for taking the time to read my blog
Sue x
This blog is about living without my lovely daughter Rebecca or Becci as she liked to be called, after Cystic Fibrosis took her life on 10th June 2009. I will talk about how we lived with CF, the affect it had on Rebecca and us, how we get through life now and all the fundraising we do in her memory. There will be times when I am sad and times when I can be happy and it will be honest.
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10/6/15
Anniversary
Today it's six years since we lost Rebecca and I can say with absolute honesty this day doesn't get easier. Mothers day and Christmas are better and on a daily basis I'm mainly OK, but her birthday and today are getting harder. It's simply that one was the most joyous day (but no longer is) and the other was and still is, the most tortuous day of my life. One brought joy, happiness and a future, the other brought heartache, devastation and utter sorrow. As much as I try not to, I can't help reliving the week leading up to losing Rebecca, wishing I'd seen it coming and been able to change things. Trouble is, choose how often I relive it, it won't change and I'm still in the same horrible place wondering why my precious daughter had to have cystic fibrosis inflicted on her.Life for her wasn't easy because of what she had to endure with CF but she made the best of it. There were no tantrums and feeling sorry for herself, no "why does it have to be me". She loved her holidays and going out and although she was always tapping money off me, she always worked hard and didn't use CF as an excuse to get a free ride. She had an art of getting people to do things for her without them realising it and in some cases like her Granma and Anne Richards, paying as well. She wasn't a angel, though she is now, but she was my very wonderful only child and I love and miss her so much it physically hurts.
Losing Rebecca left an enormous hole in my life and choose how I try to fill it, it never gets any fuller and I don't think it ever will. As a mother I'm no longer needed, so I'll take a leaf out of her book, when she had a bad coughing fit you could hear her muttering "enough now" so I'll pull myself round again and crack on. I will continue with my fund raising to try and help find a cure for CF in the hope other mothers won't have to live with the devastation losing a child brings to your life.
This brings me nicely on to my fund raising events:-
On 21st June at Ackworth cricket club Wakefield road Ackworth we are having a charity cricket match ana family fun day. It starts at 12 and there will be a bouncy castle ,tombola, other games, bar, free entry and a rodeo bull.
I'm also having my head shaved on the day as well which should be fun!!! If you would like to sponsor me for this scary challenge please visit my just giving website on the link below.
https://www.justgiving.com/account/your-pages/Sue-Marley-MBE2
I have set up a new blog for our fund raising which I will share with you shortly, the first post will be a long one as I'm covering a long period of time but subsequent ones will be shorter - promise.
As always, thank you for taking the time to read. x
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