Tuesday, 17 June 2014

17th June 2014

A lovely arrival and the big swim.

Today my great niece Isabelle Rose Harrison was born to my lovely niece Lynda and her partner Ashley. Isabelle Rose came into the world at 12.55pm  weighing in at 7lb 6oz and if she's as gorgeous, cute and beautiful as her big sister Eloise Rebecca, we are a very lucky family.
I can't wait to meet her.
I'll post a picture of her and Eloise on my next blog if Lynda and Ash don't mind.

The big swim 

Below picture is just before we started, Maggie, Emma, me and Brogan.

Photo: Super proud of this lot today. 2 miles in Lake Windemere - piece of piss :-)

To say this challenge was hard is an understatement, it was the hardest thing I've done so far and as with the skydive, I will not be doing it ever again.
Swimming 2 miles in the swimming pool is a doddle compared to swimming in a lake.

The first thing to overcome is actually prising yourself into a wetsuit and then getting used to the feeling of being squashed. Does make you look a bit slimmer though - every cloud has a silver lining I suppose.

Next comes the quick dip in the lake to acclimatise yourself to the water, that took my breath away and made me panic a bit.
Then, after getting as far to the back as possible I got in the water and started swimming with all the other competitors whizzing passed me, bumping and jostling, bringing on the 2nd panic of the day.

Once the masses had swum away with ease, my journey began.
Firstly the wetsuit was so buoyant I felt like I was floating, the water felt colder than it did 10 minutes earlier in the warm up and even though I was moving my arms and legs, I didn't seem to be going anywhere. Brogan and Emma were away in the distance with the others, but fortunately Maggie was still with me and that's the way we stayed.
The pool didn't prepare me for the waves which were probably made by the safety people in canoes or boats going passed further out in the lake, I made the most of these though and let them carry me along a bit. There were currents as well which dragged you a little bit and were worse on one side than the other.
The first mile was hard but the start of the 2nd one was even worse, me and Maggie at this point were miles behind and although I am quite competitive, I couldn't have cared less, all I wanted to do was finish. At this point I was really starting to doubt myself.
As I was approaching the 1.5 mile stage I really was struggling and I had to dig deep for the strength to carry on. The one thing I did, was think about Rebecca and all that she had to overcome and the strength she showed over her life, it was that, that spurred me on and got me to the end: the memory of her grit and determination. Maggie told me afterwards she did exactly the same, so Rebecca Marley you helped two middle aged women through a big crisis and got us through. The last half mile was easier than I expected and me and Maggie finished together 2hrs 7 minutes after we set off. We were last but got an enormous cheer as we got out of the water at which point my legs decided to wobble and I had to be helped by a young man. Some may say I did that on purpose but I can assure you I didn't I was absolutely knackered.

If anyone from Sunday has an after picture of any of us, please let me have a copy so I can put it on here.

On the plus side, so far on our just giving site we have raised £872 and we've got more to collect in on sponsor forms. But if anyone still wants to sponsor us, feel free by visiting http://www.justgiving.com/Sue-Marley-MBE1

So there it is, this years challenge done and dusted and I'm now looking round for next year, possibilities so far could be:-
Zip slide in Wales longest in Europe travelling at up to 100 mile per hour face down, or,
Great north trail, 11k or 22k running up and down hills or, if you have any ideas let me know.

If your still with me, don't forget the cricket match at Ackworth Cricket club on Sunday 29th June where Becci's CF X1 are taking on Educating Yorkshire. Family fun day in Becci's memory to raise awareness and much needed dosh to fund research into a cure for the dreaded Cystic Fibrosis.

Again, thanks for reading.
Tatty bye for now

Tuesday, 10 June 2014

To my lovely Rebecca on the 5th anniversary without you.

Today is the 5th anniversary without you Rebecca, in fact it's the time you passed away five years ago as I'm writing this.

We spent a week hoping for a miracle that really was never going to happen, but living with Cystic Fibrosis for 27.5 years makes you always live in hope. You always got over the worst infections and bounced back and we still had a 2nd opinion from Papworth hospital about transplant to cling on to. But this time it wasn't to be, you'd had enough, your body had, had enough and we had to face the fact it was time for you to gain your Angel wings. Watching and waiting for you to slip away is the hardest thing I've ever had to face but even though I wanted you to stay, it would have been horrible for you, struggling to breathe not being able to do even the smallest thing. I know you liked people to run around after you, but you hated being this way. So we brought you home as you wanted and you went to sleep forever surrounded by the people who absolutely idolised and loved you.

It doesn't get easier as people have you believe, for me it's getting harder because I miss you so much.

I know you had your own life, something we always wanted you to have, but we were still a big part of your life because of Cystic fibrosis, so very close. In a very strange way, Cystic Fibrosis probably made us so much closer than maybe we would have been and for that I am grateful.

I'm trying to be strong but I'm afraid I don't have the strength you had and I'm sure you're getting a bit miffed at me when I wallow, but I'm filling my days doing something useful hopefully raising awareness about Cystic Fibrosis and raising money to try and find a cure. I know you won't benefit form this but I can't sit on my backside doing nothing when other parents still face what me and Dad are going through. Losing a child is the absolute worst thing in life that can happen to parents and it's the hope of a cure being found that keeps me going.

I want to tell you that I love you, I miss you and I was and still am so proud of the way you lived your life even though Cystic Fibrosis did everything it could to stop you. You were a star on earth and now your a star in heaven and I hope you and your granddads are having a whale of a time where you're all fit and healthy. Until we meet again my lovely girl.xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx


                                  You made sure you enjoyed your life my lovely

I can't leave this blog without reminding people that it's my swim this weekend and if you would like to sponsor me, here is my just giving website http://www.justgiving.com/Sue-Marley-MBE1



Thank you as always for taking the time to read.

Sue xx