9/3/14

Better days and stacks of money

The last few weeks have been hard but I feel I'm turning the corner again. A friend asked me last week if I knew what had sent me on my downward spiral and the simple answer is nothing. I've come to realise that I can go along for days, weeks some times months and I'm pretty much on an even keel, dealing with daily life without Rebecca and just getting on with it as best I can. Then WHAM, I just have times when everything is just too much, everything I think about is just too much, being without Rebecca and all the joy and love she brought, is just too much. The pain in my heart is a physical pain and I can honestly say, my heart is broken and trust me, it will never mend, not until we meet again.

I'm glad I have this blog because it really is a good way of talking about my feelings and not bottling them up. I also hope it is of help to anyone who is a bereaved parent that may read it and know that whatever you are going through, you are not alone though it may feel that way.
As I say, I am beginning to turn the corner again and I'll make the best of it whilst it lasts. I've learnt now to just accept the way I am, this is how it will be. I'll deal with it the best way I can and it doesn't matter what anyone else thinks because only me has to walk in these shoes.

Stacks of cash
Did a Tombola yesterday and raised £625, yep that's right £625, I'm so chuffed with this amount. See the fundraising tab for a picture and a bit more about it.
We've done really well with our fundraising and it's nearly year end so I'll update this soon with the year's total and the total since setting up Becci's Fund. She'd be very proud of us all and it's something that means an awful lot to me because it keeps my girl's memory alive.
 
Good news, we've got the date for the cricket match and it's earlier than normal this year,     Sunday 29th June.

Our opponents for this year are a team from Thornhill Academy Dewsbury and Educating Yorkshire and I think this is going to be a lot of fun, it could even be classed as local "celebrities". I'm already thinking about my piece for the paper "Educating Yorkshire comes to Ackworth" :)

Due to holidays we've had a few people who have had to drop out but I'm hopeful there'll be volunteers coming along to join us and help out on the day. My niece Lynda and her partner Ash have had to drop out but by that time we'll have a little addition to the family, my new (great) niece whose name may or may not be Rosie :)

My swimming is coming along nicely, I've still not developed webbing between my toes but I do wonder when I'm swallowing gobs full of water, do people ever pee in here:( 
I suppose there will be worse in the lake!!
Anyway I'm not going to beat about the bush, I need sponsors so go to the link below and get your dosh on my just giving site:-

https://www.justgiving.com/account/your-pages/Sue-Marley-MBE1

I am also putting another link on here and it is a link to the CF website to blow up a balloon and show your support of anyone you know who is affected by CF. That means people who have CF, lost their life to CF or families that are affected by the illness. You can show your support and also write a message. If you can't do it from your phone please take the time to do it from your laptop, it takes minutes.

http://noparty.cysticfibrosis.org.uk/

I think that's all for now folks, I hope you've enjoyed reading, in fact thank you for taking the time to read. Fund raising tab has been updated as well.
Sue x